It's approaching 4am on Friday morning and I am wide awake. I have been having a hard time since you left this place Wednesday evening. I try and hold it together because I tell myself "I don't have it bad, I wasn't a dear family member or your loving boyfriend, or even your friend since way back in the day," but when I am alone I just can't help it. I pull out the picture of you and I that I haven't let go of since last night and look at one of the most beautiful, amazing, and strongest persons I know.
I feel like there is so much I need to tell you, so much we haven't had the chance to talk about these past, very rough, two months. So much we haven't got to do together. But then I look back at all the times we did share together and it puts a smile on my face, puts me at ease. We may not have gotten to do it all, but girl we sure had some good times.
When Josh and I starting dating, owe 6 years ago, I not only got the man of my dreams, but one of the bestest friends, and a sister in you. I thank God everyday for bringing you into my life. You have taught me so much about love, life, and faith.
I HATE the word cancer and I hate what it did to you (and many other loved ones), but you never showed anyone you were scared. You have the strongest attitude and faith, no matter what kind of news doctors and scans and tests brought you.
You should see all the people that have come together to celebrate you! To celebrate the fun, loving, strong, and kind friend you were. You have touched so many peoples heart, you should be proud of yourself.
I saw your family tonight. They are doing okay. They miss you terribly, but are at ease that you are not in any more pain and that you don't have to fight the battle that you already won. Cancer may have took you away physical, but you won because of all the memories that were made. The life lessons that you taught people through this ordeal, even though you didn't try to teach anybody anything. You won Kate and that is all that matters.
Well I guess I should go and try and get some sleep. I will talk with you again soon.
Love you forever and always,
Samantha
Also read this beautiful post written by Kate's cousin Jessica.
